Suddenly, I remember about Bima’s mother.
I used to send her a message or call her when she just pop up in my mind, or when her son does. But now, I can’t do anything because I lost her number and her address. I have a feeling that when I miss somebody or remember somebody just all of a sudden, that means that person also just remember me, or simply miss me.
I was totally down when I lost her son. It was just a week before that, I talked to him for the last time, then she called me telling the news. And the day before, I broke up with my boyfriend. I was totally down receiving unpleasant situation two days in a row.
Now I don’t know how to contact her. She and her husband live far away from Jakarta, will take more than 2 hours to reach her house out of town. I just hope that she will contact me very soon because I miss her, I miss his son too.
I do care about his family, I don’t want something bad happens to his family.
One evening, when I was staring at the moon, I wondered whether he was staring at the same moon that I was staring? I miss his soul. I pray that u are rest in peace there. Dear God
Sunday, 12 October 2008
Dear God
Dear God,
Please forgive me for being brave enough to write a letter to You.
My loneliness and confusion make me longing for you, want to get closer to You and be friends with You.
I’m not into crying and being melancholic when I talk to You, neither to my friends and families. I prefer to talk in a normal tone, from the heart, in a normal conversation situation. So please forgive once again for not being able to be melancholic when I ask something to You.
I am so grateful for everything You give me, bless me. Eventhough as a human I always want more and more and more than what You have been giving me. This is also my reason to apology.
What I ‘m afraid of right now is that You will take back everything You have been giving me. My families, friends, relatives, my brain(although I’m not smart enough but I m happy with how You show me how to use it), my heart (for being able to be nice and open to various people characteristics). Please keep every precious thing in my life, God, and let me enjoy, use and take care of them.
However, I’m feeling not enough now. Maybe I’m a bit greedy, but I am not satisfied with what I am now. I want and need to do and be more than what I’m doing and being now. Somehow I feel that You are talking to me and asking do I want more?
And somehow I believe that You will give me more, because I believe You love me. I just need to be patient and keep praying, and doing and struggling with this.
The way I’m thinking now is that you are giving me the opportunity to feel how people, who are not as lucky as me, running their lives. How they struggle and solve problems, how they act and response to conditions, etc.
Honestly, I still don’t know what should I do now. Being enough and trying to settle down, or still need to dream and achieve something that honestly I’m still not sure what it is.
Some people say I’m so lucky and blessed with what I am now. But I’m not yet feeling the same way. See, I’m so greedy and feeling not enough. Please forgive me. I should have been so grateful from a very previous time.
Oh, Dear God…. Please help me. Why is everything so confusing and looks like puzzles, mysteries, hidden meanings?
I know and do believe that You always work in mysterious ways.
Perhaps, I’m just not smart enough to realize it.
Please forgive me for being brave enough to write a letter to You.
My loneliness and confusion make me longing for you, want to get closer to You and be friends with You.
I’m not into crying and being melancholic when I talk to You, neither to my friends and families. I prefer to talk in a normal tone, from the heart, in a normal conversation situation. So please forgive once again for not being able to be melancholic when I ask something to You.
I am so grateful for everything You give me, bless me. Eventhough as a human I always want more and more and more than what You have been giving me. This is also my reason to apology.
What I ‘m afraid of right now is that You will take back everything You have been giving me. My families, friends, relatives, my brain(although I’m not smart enough but I m happy with how You show me how to use it), my heart (for being able to be nice and open to various people characteristics). Please keep every precious thing in my life, God, and let me enjoy, use and take care of them.
However, I’m feeling not enough now. Maybe I’m a bit greedy, but I am not satisfied with what I am now. I want and need to do and be more than what I’m doing and being now. Somehow I feel that You are talking to me and asking do I want more?
And somehow I believe that You will give me more, because I believe You love me. I just need to be patient and keep praying, and doing and struggling with this.
The way I’m thinking now is that you are giving me the opportunity to feel how people, who are not as lucky as me, running their lives. How they struggle and solve problems, how they act and response to conditions, etc.
Honestly, I still don’t know what should I do now. Being enough and trying to settle down, or still need to dream and achieve something that honestly I’m still not sure what it is.
Some people say I’m so lucky and blessed with what I am now. But I’m not yet feeling the same way. See, I’m so greedy and feeling not enough. Please forgive me. I should have been so grateful from a very previous time.
Oh, Dear God…. Please help me. Why is everything so confusing and looks like puzzles, mysteries, hidden meanings?
I know and do believe that You always work in mysterious ways.
Perhaps, I’m just not smart enough to realize it.
Thursday, 2 October 2008
Sepi........................
Sepi…..
Satu kata itu kynya cocok bgt utk gw di lebaran kali ini.
Ibu dan ade gw yg kecil udah mudik bareng sejak hari Jum’at sebelum lebaran. Ade gw yg satu lagi udah berangkat juga bareng tante gw pas malem takbiran. Bokap gw tentunya (kaya tahun2 sebelumnya) Siaga 1. Maklum abdi negara, pas hari2 besar malah ga bisa kumpul bareng keluarga. Biasanya abis lebaran baru bisa ambil cuti, untuk jemput keluarga yg udah mudik duluan.
Gw?
Ramadhan hari ke-tiga gw seperti mendapat rejeki bulan puasa. Kemaren2 gw Cuma denger bahwa rejeki bulan puasa memang tak terduga, tp blm pernah ngalamin sendiri. Tapi tahun ini, gw merasakannya sendiri. Gw udah 2 bln nganggur. Keputusan resign dari kerjaan sebelumnya di mana gaji lumayan, ternyata menimbulkan opini macem2, dari tmn n keluarga. Mau puasa, apalagi lebaran, company jarang merekrut orang. Biasanya abis lebaran baru rame lagi bursa tenaga kerja. Tapi saat itu gw udah ga bisa mikir jernih lg, setelah kejadian2 yang gw udah ga bisa terima, gw nekat resign. Walopun setelah keluar gw masih ditelponin untuk balik lagi, tp gw ga akan menjilat lagi ludah yg udah keluar.
Ramadhan hari ketiga, pagi2 gw iseng apply. Setengah jam selanjutnya ada panggilan. Percaya ga percaya sih, krn waktu itu gw masih asik chating ama tmn2 yg lg online. Gw dipanggil interview 4 jam kemudian. What??? Ternyata company itu sedang desperate cari orang utk gantiin salah satu karyawannya yg mau cuti melahirkan. So, after that, let see..... Kalo kedua belah pihak (gw and company) cocok, akan ada pembicaraan lagi. Kalo ada salah satu pihak yg ga cocok (either me or the company) ya, that’s it. Thanks and good bye. Tapi waktu mereka tanya, what’s my plan for the next 4 months, gw terus terang lah bahwa gw ada harapan utk kerja di company ini (ya iya lah, siapa jg yg ga mau gawe di giant company ky gitu), baik di departemen ini ato di departemen lain. Tapi ya itu td, 4 bulan rasanya cukup untuk merenung, meresapi, menimbang2 dan berpikir2 utk langkah selanjutnya.
Singkat cerita, gw diterima dan tanggal 8 September/ 8 Ramadhan mulai kerja (pretty fast process) for such a big company. Alhamdulillah….. walopun dengan gaji yg biasa2 aja, namanya juga staff biasa. Sebenernya cukup sih, asal gw bisa menahan diri ga usah kost, jangan sering2 hang out, tahan diri dari godaan sana sini. Tapi karena gw pernah merasakan digaji jauh lebih dari itu, ya berasa perlu waktu aja utk merasa tenang dan cukup dengan sejumlah itu. Dear God, jauhkanlah gw dari kufur nikmat…….. I thank You for everything you give and bless me with. Terlebih working environment-nya enak and company culturenya oke.
Sebagai new employee gw pastinya nurut ama atasan gw, yang kebetulan, kampungnya cuma di Bogor. Dan ternyata dia pula lah yang mengusulkan ga usah ada cuti bersama, dan sialnya disetujui oleh sang direktur HRD. She doesn’t seem enjoying the moment of togetherness with families. Sampe H-1 gw dibuatnya masih masuk kerja dan ketika kerjaan gw udah kelar pun, dibuatnya nunggu sampe jam 2an, baru bisa pulang menyambut malam takbiran. Emang sih kerjaan bakal banyak setelah lebaran nanti, krn akan ada 2 regional trening yg bakal kita handle. Tapi kalo ga kita sendiri yg control, work is really like never
ending…..
So….here I am…..
Libur cuma rabu-kamis pas tanggal merah. Jum’at udah masuk lg, di mana orang2 masih pada maen petasan, salam2an, ketemu sodara2 di kampong masing2.
Agak miris jg pas malem takbiran, gw bnr2 sendiri…ri…ri…ri….
Setelah merenung ttg kesalahan2 gw, gw putuskan ga mau terlalu larut dlm kemelow-an. ….
Yah, sleeping is the best thing to do…….
Kebetulan gw lg ga sholat, jd besok paginya, pas orang2 berangkat sholat Ied, gw sibuk di dapur, manasin opor yang nyokap pesen ke orang, beres2 and menata2 kue di meja.
Sekarang H+ 1, gw jg masih sendiri. Tmn2 pastinya pada sibuk dengan urusan keluarga masing2. Nyokap pastinya lg kumpul keluarga besar, krn keluarga nyokap ada tradisi kumpul keluarga besar pas hari ke-2. Bokap masuk kerja seperti biasa, mengabdi kepada negara.
Gw yg ga punya tmn di sekitar rumah, bingung sendiri mau ngapain. So, after (lagi-lagi) manasin opor dan bersih2 rumah, and after bokap berangkat, gw mengurung diri lagi di rumah. Kadang ngurung di kamar kalo di AXN or Starworld lg ada acara bgs. SMS sana sini, telpon sana sini, but everybody seems busy with various Eid program. Hm….jadi inget si Henry, tetangga n tmn paling deket secara geografis. Pernah pas gw jg lg sendirian (lupa pas moment apa ya), Dia mau dateng bela2in bawa martabak n nemenin ngobrol ampe hampir subuh. Untung ga digrebek saat itu, hehehe.....
Inget setahun lalu, dimana keluarga jg pada mudik dan gw dapet liburnya udah mepet dengan hari H, tiket udah impossible to get. Tapi ada si Mac, tmn Hospitality Club dari London yg lg traveling ke Indonesia. Dia ngajakin ke Kebun Raya hari kedua. Agak aneh bwt gw, tp secara saat itu gw gada kerjaan ya udah deh.....cabut ke KRB. Kaya orang pacaran ajah......:P. Besokannya dia ngajak ke Bandung, lets go....... We had fun but I know the limit lah…..
Tapi kali ini……. Really nothing to do. Halal bi halal terdekat baru hari minggu, di rumah Indah di Bogor. Besok jumat gw kudu kerja dulu L( . Semoga Cuma setengah hari….huh…kynya sih day dreaming nih….
Inget temen2 yg lg di luar…..
Budi di JB, yg baru sebulan merintis karir jd dokter hewan di Malaysia,
Amel di Chiang Mai, yg lg kuliah master,
Fiqrie di Roma, yg ktnya sekarang masih Eurotrip sebelum pulang ke Indo,
Rian di Belanda, yg seharusnya udah pulang brg Mba Mul,
Rahman di SG,
Apa mereka jg kesepian ky gw ya?
Kalo Budi sih kynya iya.....hehehe.....krn kalo lg OL pasti ketemunya dia yg ngadu seharian blm makan lah, blm keluar rumah lah, etc....
Acara2 TV kok ya membosankan......
Nyokap kapan pulang....
Si mba juga..... baju kotor gw udah lumayan menumpuk....huh.....
Ade2 gw, yg walopun kalo ketemu cuman berantem2an, tp kalo gada berasa jg sepinya.
Dita pernah ngajak ke gading, cari makan, krn kebanyakan pada tutup pas lebaran. Rudi jg kebetulan ga mudik ke Brastagi. Let’s go bow......
Tapi besok akyu kerja dulu ya.......sabtu aja jalannya.......
Eh, sabtu ada acara CS, ada bule yg pengen potret seputar jakarta sepanjang jalur busway dari Kota-Blok M......
Jumat malem deh,,,,,,,,,
Satu kata itu kynya cocok bgt utk gw di lebaran kali ini.
Ibu dan ade gw yg kecil udah mudik bareng sejak hari Jum’at sebelum lebaran. Ade gw yg satu lagi udah berangkat juga bareng tante gw pas malem takbiran. Bokap gw tentunya (kaya tahun2 sebelumnya) Siaga 1. Maklum abdi negara, pas hari2 besar malah ga bisa kumpul bareng keluarga. Biasanya abis lebaran baru bisa ambil cuti, untuk jemput keluarga yg udah mudik duluan.
Gw?
Ramadhan hari ke-tiga gw seperti mendapat rejeki bulan puasa. Kemaren2 gw Cuma denger bahwa rejeki bulan puasa memang tak terduga, tp blm pernah ngalamin sendiri. Tapi tahun ini, gw merasakannya sendiri. Gw udah 2 bln nganggur. Keputusan resign dari kerjaan sebelumnya di mana gaji lumayan, ternyata menimbulkan opini macem2, dari tmn n keluarga. Mau puasa, apalagi lebaran, company jarang merekrut orang. Biasanya abis lebaran baru rame lagi bursa tenaga kerja. Tapi saat itu gw udah ga bisa mikir jernih lg, setelah kejadian2 yang gw udah ga bisa terima, gw nekat resign. Walopun setelah keluar gw masih ditelponin untuk balik lagi, tp gw ga akan menjilat lagi ludah yg udah keluar.
Ramadhan hari ketiga, pagi2 gw iseng apply. Setengah jam selanjutnya ada panggilan. Percaya ga percaya sih, krn waktu itu gw masih asik chating ama tmn2 yg lg online. Gw dipanggil interview 4 jam kemudian. What??? Ternyata company itu sedang desperate cari orang utk gantiin salah satu karyawannya yg mau cuti melahirkan. So, after that, let see..... Kalo kedua belah pihak (gw and company) cocok, akan ada pembicaraan lagi. Kalo ada salah satu pihak yg ga cocok (either me or the company) ya, that’s it. Thanks and good bye. Tapi waktu mereka tanya, what’s my plan for the next 4 months, gw terus terang lah bahwa gw ada harapan utk kerja di company ini (ya iya lah, siapa jg yg ga mau gawe di giant company ky gitu), baik di departemen ini ato di departemen lain. Tapi ya itu td, 4 bulan rasanya cukup untuk merenung, meresapi, menimbang2 dan berpikir2 utk langkah selanjutnya.
Singkat cerita, gw diterima dan tanggal 8 September/ 8 Ramadhan mulai kerja (pretty fast process) for such a big company. Alhamdulillah….. walopun dengan gaji yg biasa2 aja, namanya juga staff biasa. Sebenernya cukup sih, asal gw bisa menahan diri ga usah kost, jangan sering2 hang out, tahan diri dari godaan sana sini. Tapi karena gw pernah merasakan digaji jauh lebih dari itu, ya berasa perlu waktu aja utk merasa tenang dan cukup dengan sejumlah itu. Dear God, jauhkanlah gw dari kufur nikmat…….. I thank You for everything you give and bless me with. Terlebih working environment-nya enak and company culturenya oke.
Sebagai new employee gw pastinya nurut ama atasan gw, yang kebetulan, kampungnya cuma di Bogor. Dan ternyata dia pula lah yang mengusulkan ga usah ada cuti bersama, dan sialnya disetujui oleh sang direktur HRD. She doesn’t seem enjoying the moment of togetherness with families. Sampe H-1 gw dibuatnya masih masuk kerja dan ketika kerjaan gw udah kelar pun, dibuatnya nunggu sampe jam 2an, baru bisa pulang menyambut malam takbiran. Emang sih kerjaan bakal banyak setelah lebaran nanti, krn akan ada 2 regional trening yg bakal kita handle. Tapi kalo ga kita sendiri yg control, work is really like never
ending…..
So….here I am…..
Libur cuma rabu-kamis pas tanggal merah. Jum’at udah masuk lg, di mana orang2 masih pada maen petasan, salam2an, ketemu sodara2 di kampong masing2.
Agak miris jg pas malem takbiran, gw bnr2 sendiri…ri…ri…ri….
Setelah merenung ttg kesalahan2 gw, gw putuskan ga mau terlalu larut dlm kemelow-an. ….
Yah, sleeping is the best thing to do…….
Kebetulan gw lg ga sholat, jd besok paginya, pas orang2 berangkat sholat Ied, gw sibuk di dapur, manasin opor yang nyokap pesen ke orang, beres2 and menata2 kue di meja.
Sekarang H+ 1, gw jg masih sendiri. Tmn2 pastinya pada sibuk dengan urusan keluarga masing2. Nyokap pastinya lg kumpul keluarga besar, krn keluarga nyokap ada tradisi kumpul keluarga besar pas hari ke-2. Bokap masuk kerja seperti biasa, mengabdi kepada negara.
Gw yg ga punya tmn di sekitar rumah, bingung sendiri mau ngapain. So, after (lagi-lagi) manasin opor dan bersih2 rumah, and after bokap berangkat, gw mengurung diri lagi di rumah. Kadang ngurung di kamar kalo di AXN or Starworld lg ada acara bgs. SMS sana sini, telpon sana sini, but everybody seems busy with various Eid program. Hm….jadi inget si Henry, tetangga n tmn paling deket secara geografis. Pernah pas gw jg lg sendirian (lupa pas moment apa ya), Dia mau dateng bela2in bawa martabak n nemenin ngobrol ampe hampir subuh. Untung ga digrebek saat itu, hehehe.....
Inget setahun lalu, dimana keluarga jg pada mudik dan gw dapet liburnya udah mepet dengan hari H, tiket udah impossible to get. Tapi ada si Mac, tmn Hospitality Club dari London yg lg traveling ke Indonesia. Dia ngajakin ke Kebun Raya hari kedua. Agak aneh bwt gw, tp secara saat itu gw gada kerjaan ya udah deh.....cabut ke KRB. Kaya orang pacaran ajah......:P. Besokannya dia ngajak ke Bandung, lets go....... We had fun but I know the limit lah…..
Tapi kali ini……. Really nothing to do. Halal bi halal terdekat baru hari minggu, di rumah Indah di Bogor. Besok jumat gw kudu kerja dulu L( . Semoga Cuma setengah hari….huh…kynya sih day dreaming nih….
Inget temen2 yg lg di luar…..
Budi di JB, yg baru sebulan merintis karir jd dokter hewan di Malaysia,
Amel di Chiang Mai, yg lg kuliah master,
Fiqrie di Roma, yg ktnya sekarang masih Eurotrip sebelum pulang ke Indo,
Rian di Belanda, yg seharusnya udah pulang brg Mba Mul,
Rahman di SG,
Apa mereka jg kesepian ky gw ya?
Kalo Budi sih kynya iya.....hehehe.....krn kalo lg OL pasti ketemunya dia yg ngadu seharian blm makan lah, blm keluar rumah lah, etc....
Acara2 TV kok ya membosankan......
Nyokap kapan pulang....
Si mba juga..... baju kotor gw udah lumayan menumpuk....huh.....
Ade2 gw, yg walopun kalo ketemu cuman berantem2an, tp kalo gada berasa jg sepinya.
Dita pernah ngajak ke gading, cari makan, krn kebanyakan pada tutup pas lebaran. Rudi jg kebetulan ga mudik ke Brastagi. Let’s go bow......
Tapi besok akyu kerja dulu ya.......sabtu aja jalannya.......
Eh, sabtu ada acara CS, ada bule yg pengen potret seputar jakarta sepanjang jalur busway dari Kota-Blok M......
Jumat malem deh,,,,,,,,,
Monday, 10 March 2008
APN-GCR
I received an email from a friend, i followed the link and found out a vacancy to work in Kobe, Japan. It was such a challenging job because i will have to deal with researchers, policy makers and governmental agencies in Asia Pacific.
So i decided to try and send my CV through email, and the response as follows:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,
"Thank you very much for your interest in the APN and the position of theProgramme Fellow for scientific affairs. Please find attached some moreinformation on the position, which I hope is useful for you.If you have any further questions please do not hesitate to contact me."
Best regards,
Yukihiro IMANARI, Mr.
Executive Manager
APN Secretariat
1-5-1 Wakinohama Kaigan Dori
Chuo-ku, Kobe
651-0073 JAPAN
Tel.: +81-78-230-8017
Fax: +81-78-230-8018
Then i response by telling him thank you for the response and i await for the interview. And, two weeks later another email coming from the same address:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,"
"Thank you very much once again for your interest in the position of APN Programme Fellow for Scientific Affairs. I am pleased to inform you that after careful consideration you have been short-listed for a telephone interview."
"Could you please let me know, by email, your availability for an interview for about 15 minutes on Thursday, 06 March 2008, at 14:00h, Japanese Standard Time (Please remember that the time in Japan is two hours ahead of Western Indonesia Time)?"
"If this time should not be convenient to you I could offer 13:00h Japanese Standard Time on Friday, 07 March 2008. Please advise us your availability as soon as possible."
"Based on the agreed time we will give you a phone call for the interview. Our Scientific Officer, Dr. Linda Stevenson, will lead the interview, but some of the APN Secretariat staff, including myself, will listen to the conversation via a speaker phone. Please also confirm the number we should dial: +62812-878-1912 or +6221-848-4561?Looking forward to hearing from you as soon as possible."
I was excited and quickly answered the email that i would be available on Friday, March 7, 13.00 (Japan Time), would mean 11.00 Western Indonesia Time. I prepared all the things, open the APN website (www.apn-gcr.org) to find out more about the institution.
I was more than ready to receive the phone interview. And i think, it run smoothly. We enjoyed the time of the interview........I do hope and pray for it. The interviewer promised to announce the result on Tuesday (March 11).
Tuesday morning, i open my email with all questions inside my head, and this is what i received:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,"
" I regret to inform you that, after a great deal of due care and consideration, you have not been selected for the position of APN ProgrammeFellow for Scientific Affairs."
"We realize that this news must be of great disappointment to you, but please note that we were extremely impressed with your credentials. Moreover, we will keep your application on record should a suitable position with the APN become available. We would also encourage you to have a look at other global change programmes' websites, as other opportunities may exist."
"In the meantime, we would like to thank you again for your interest in and application to the APN. We also wish you the very best of success with your
future endeavours."
With best regards,
Yukihiro IMANARI, Mr.
Executive Manager
APN Secretariat
1-5-1 Wakinohama Kaigan Dori
Chuo-ku, Kobe
651-0073 JAPAN
Tel.: +81-78-230-8017
Fax: +81-78-230-8018
Tadaaaaa.........
In one hand, i am dissappointed because i want this job so much to escape from this current job, and i think i impressed the interviewer as well at that time. I was so curious to know why they don't take me. And to fulfill my curiousity, i reply the rejection email:
"Dear Mr. Imanari,"
"Thank you for the consideration."
"It is a dissapointment for me, indeed. But i am sure the decision made by very careful consideration of APN. For my information and improvement in the future, i would really appreciate if you could tell me the reason that i failed in this selection."
"Hope APN get the best candidates for the Programme Fellow for the year ahead."
"I also highly appreciate for keeping my application on record. "
"Again, thank you for the opportunity and success for APN."
Best Regards,
Maylina
I'm not sure whether it's a common thing in Japan that interviewee is asking for the reasons why he/ she is rejected. But, my curiousity makes me forget about it and bravely send the email.
Mr. Imanari doesn't make me to wait for hours, i receive the answer just after doing some administrative tasks in my office.
"Dear Maylina,"
"Many thanks for your email. As you can imagine I was one of the secretariat staff who was sitting in the phone interview, while Linda was leading it asshe is the supervisor the new Programme Fellow would have to work under."
"We all thought that your credentials are really impressive. So in our view you haven't failed at all, but simply applied for a job which we thought would not make you happy with: while all of us had the feeling that you would be a great person in communicating with our members and applicants,researchers, government officials, etc. the job we was offering is very muchdesk work, especially managing and filing (by using ACCESS, for instance)the data of applicants and their proposals."
"Would we be offering a position related to public relations, membership development and communications you would be one of the most suitable candidates we could think of. "
"These are my personal view and I am writing these lines without having askedmy colleagues for their opinions. But I am more than sure that they arebasically feeling the same way. I thank you again for your interest in and application to the APN. "
"As said before, we would like to keep your CV on record for any vacancy we may beable to offer at our office in the future."
All the best,
Yuki Imanari
APN Secretariat
He seemed to be very friendly by answering me like that, and i feel we're friends already. I really appreciate he would wrote to me like that, so i replied:
"Hi Mr. Imanari,"
"Thanks a million for the response. I really appreciate it. "
"You are adding the list of people telling me that i am very much into communicating. Now, i am very sure that it is my talent. I am not sure how many times i have said thanks to you but i want to say it again, thank you."
"Ok, we can keep in touch."
Cheers,
Maylina
Oh my GOD....Thanks for everything.....
In my dissappointment, i find a blessing........
So i decided to try and send my CV through email, and the response as follows:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,
"Thank you very much for your interest in the APN and the position of theProgramme Fellow for scientific affairs. Please find attached some moreinformation on the position, which I hope is useful for you.If you have any further questions please do not hesitate to contact me."
Best regards,
Yukihiro IMANARI, Mr.
Executive Manager
APN Secretariat
1-5-1 Wakinohama Kaigan Dori
Chuo-ku, Kobe
651-0073 JAPAN
Tel.: +81-78-230-8017
Fax: +81-78-230-8018
Then i response by telling him thank you for the response and i await for the interview. And, two weeks later another email coming from the same address:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,"
"Thank you very much once again for your interest in the position of APN Programme Fellow for Scientific Affairs. I am pleased to inform you that after careful consideration you have been short-listed for a telephone interview."
"Could you please let me know, by email, your availability for an interview for about 15 minutes on Thursday, 06 March 2008, at 14:00h, Japanese Standard Time (Please remember that the time in Japan is two hours ahead of Western Indonesia Time)?"
"If this time should not be convenient to you I could offer 13:00h Japanese Standard Time on Friday, 07 March 2008. Please advise us your availability as soon as possible."
"Based on the agreed time we will give you a phone call for the interview. Our Scientific Officer, Dr. Linda Stevenson, will lead the interview, but some of the APN Secretariat staff, including myself, will listen to the conversation via a speaker phone. Please also confirm the number we should dial: +62812-878-1912 or +6221-848-4561?Looking forward to hearing from you as soon as possible."
I was excited and quickly answered the email that i would be available on Friday, March 7, 13.00 (Japan Time), would mean 11.00 Western Indonesia Time. I prepared all the things, open the APN website (www.apn-gcr.org) to find out more about the institution.
I was more than ready to receive the phone interview. And i think, it run smoothly. We enjoyed the time of the interview........I do hope and pray for it. The interviewer promised to announce the result on Tuesday (March 11).
Tuesday morning, i open my email with all questions inside my head, and this is what i received:
"Dear Ms. Maylina,"
" I regret to inform you that, after a great deal of due care and consideration, you have not been selected for the position of APN ProgrammeFellow for Scientific Affairs."
"We realize that this news must be of great disappointment to you, but please note that we were extremely impressed with your credentials. Moreover, we will keep your application on record should a suitable position with the APN become available. We would also encourage you to have a look at other global change programmes' websites, as other opportunities may exist."
"In the meantime, we would like to thank you again for your interest in and application to the APN. We also wish you the very best of success with your
future endeavours."
With best regards,
Yukihiro IMANARI, Mr.
Executive Manager
APN Secretariat
1-5-1 Wakinohama Kaigan Dori
Chuo-ku, Kobe
651-0073 JAPAN
Tel.: +81-78-230-8017
Fax: +81-78-230-8018
Tadaaaaa.........
In one hand, i am dissappointed because i want this job so much to escape from this current job, and i think i impressed the interviewer as well at that time. I was so curious to know why they don't take me. And to fulfill my curiousity, i reply the rejection email:
"Dear Mr. Imanari,"
"Thank you for the consideration."
"It is a dissapointment for me, indeed. But i am sure the decision made by very careful consideration of APN. For my information and improvement in the future, i would really appreciate if you could tell me the reason that i failed in this selection."
"Hope APN get the best candidates for the Programme Fellow for the year ahead."
"I also highly appreciate for keeping my application on record. "
"Again, thank you for the opportunity and success for APN."
Best Regards,
Maylina
I'm not sure whether it's a common thing in Japan that interviewee is asking for the reasons why he/ she is rejected. But, my curiousity makes me forget about it and bravely send the email.
Mr. Imanari doesn't make me to wait for hours, i receive the answer just after doing some administrative tasks in my office.
"Dear Maylina,"
"Many thanks for your email. As you can imagine I was one of the secretariat staff who was sitting in the phone interview, while Linda was leading it asshe is the supervisor the new Programme Fellow would have to work under."
"We all thought that your credentials are really impressive. So in our view you haven't failed at all, but simply applied for a job which we thought would not make you happy with: while all of us had the feeling that you would be a great person in communicating with our members and applicants,researchers, government officials, etc. the job we was offering is very muchdesk work, especially managing and filing (by using ACCESS, for instance)the data of applicants and their proposals."
"Would we be offering a position related to public relations, membership development and communications you would be one of the most suitable candidates we could think of. "
"These are my personal view and I am writing these lines without having askedmy colleagues for their opinions. But I am more than sure that they arebasically feeling the same way. I thank you again for your interest in and application to the APN. "
"As said before, we would like to keep your CV on record for any vacancy we may beable to offer at our office in the future."
All the best,
Yuki Imanari
APN Secretariat
He seemed to be very friendly by answering me like that, and i feel we're friends already. I really appreciate he would wrote to me like that, so i replied:
"Hi Mr. Imanari,"
"Thanks a million for the response. I really appreciate it. "
"You are adding the list of people telling me that i am very much into communicating. Now, i am very sure that it is my talent. I am not sure how many times i have said thanks to you but i want to say it again, thank you."
"Ok, we can keep in touch."
Cheers,
Maylina
Oh my GOD....Thanks for everything.....
In my dissappointment, i find a blessing........
Thursday, 14 February 2008
Sebenarnya
Iseng- iseng apply lewat jobstreet, pas gw cek status ternyata ada company yang udah ngeliat CV gw selama 4 kali, dan di status tertulis "in process".
Besoknya, gw nerima telpon untuk panggilan psikotes and TOEIC sambil disuruh bawa CV lagi, ijazah, transkrip, sertifikat yg relevan, reference letter, dll.
Kantornya di Plaza Sentral, Sudirman. Kinda easy to find, soalnya kalo mau ke Plangi pasti lewat situ.
Selesai tes TOEIC gw kira mau langsung interview, ternyata hrs nunggu dipanggil dulu bbrp hari kemudian. Yah, gw kira langsung, jd ga ribet ijin dari kantor or bilang sakit :P.
Beberapa hari kemudian dipanggil interview. Kali ini ama seorang team leader marketing dr divisi commerce. Alhamdulillah quite satisfying lah, kayanya semua pertanyaan gw jawab dgn baik, dan (bukannya GR) si interviewer keliatan seneng ama gw. ;)
Singkat kata, lolos lagi gw ke tahap selanjutnya, which is presentasi.
Suatu sore jam 3an ditelpon, besok paginya suruh presentasi. Untung ga mati lampu kantor gw, and untung lg gada kerjaan. Ngebut deh gw bikin power point.
Besoknya presentasi di depan sang team leader itu dan seorang manager marketingnya. Hm....i need some improvement krn dibilang terlalu cepat menyampaikan. Tp afterall, mereka puas ama presentasi gw....Alhamdulillah...
After presentasi, langsung nego gaji......(LAH......jd diterima nih gw???)
Under expectation sih nominalnya, dan gw jg masih kerja di sini kok yg bisa bayar bigger.
In the end, i said NO.........
Interviewer gw bilang gpp, dan mulai bilang pengakuannya:
"I'm telling u as a friend". SEBENERNYA dia manggil gw cuma karena impressed ama CV gw, dan pengen liat gw orangnya ky gimana, ternyata memang satisfying.....HALAH.....
Trus kita malah ngobrol lah ditelpon.....Ngegosip deh....:P
Alhamdulillah ada yg impressed ama CV gw, walaupun gw tolak tawaran kerjanya.....huhuhu
Besoknya, gw nerima telpon untuk panggilan psikotes and TOEIC sambil disuruh bawa CV lagi, ijazah, transkrip, sertifikat yg relevan, reference letter, dll.
Kantornya di Plaza Sentral, Sudirman. Kinda easy to find, soalnya kalo mau ke Plangi pasti lewat situ.
Selesai tes TOEIC gw kira mau langsung interview, ternyata hrs nunggu dipanggil dulu bbrp hari kemudian. Yah, gw kira langsung, jd ga ribet ijin dari kantor or bilang sakit :P.
Beberapa hari kemudian dipanggil interview. Kali ini ama seorang team leader marketing dr divisi commerce. Alhamdulillah quite satisfying lah, kayanya semua pertanyaan gw jawab dgn baik, dan (bukannya GR) si interviewer keliatan seneng ama gw. ;)
Singkat kata, lolos lagi gw ke tahap selanjutnya, which is presentasi.
Suatu sore jam 3an ditelpon, besok paginya suruh presentasi. Untung ga mati lampu kantor gw, and untung lg gada kerjaan. Ngebut deh gw bikin power point.
Besoknya presentasi di depan sang team leader itu dan seorang manager marketingnya. Hm....i need some improvement krn dibilang terlalu cepat menyampaikan. Tp afterall, mereka puas ama presentasi gw....Alhamdulillah...
After presentasi, langsung nego gaji......(LAH......jd diterima nih gw???)
Under expectation sih nominalnya, dan gw jg masih kerja di sini kok yg bisa bayar bigger.
In the end, i said NO.........
Interviewer gw bilang gpp, dan mulai bilang pengakuannya:
"I'm telling u as a friend". SEBENERNYA dia manggil gw cuma karena impressed ama CV gw, dan pengen liat gw orangnya ky gimana, ternyata memang satisfying.....HALAH.....
Trus kita malah ngobrol lah ditelpon.....Ngegosip deh....:P
Alhamdulillah ada yg impressed ama CV gw, walaupun gw tolak tawaran kerjanya.....huhuhu
Sunday, 13 January 2008
Resolutions???
Naaa.....................................
I don't like this part.
Many people ask about my resolutions in this new year.
Well, maybe i have in my mind what i want to do and achieve, but i would rather keep it for my self than share it.
Actually i never targetting things to be done or achieved. I will just let everything goes and flows and i receive and run what GOD gives me.
I think it will be more interesting to see and face my life without planning it.
I try to be open minded and do whatever i want to do which comes to my mind anytime.
Maybe, i'm just afraid that my plans wouldn't be done, but not really. I'm just not into too targetting person.
However, this year i hope these several wishes can come true:
1. Recover from my FAM, which already been disturbing my mind for years, eventhough it is not a life threatening disease. For this, i am now having a treatment with sort of alternative way, instead of being surgeried. I have been surgeried twice for this disease, and i don't want to spend my life with other surgery. Now, i go to Kelapa Gading area every saturday morning to visit one the alternative treatment guy. I was introduced by my boss. It's quiet strange, the way he does the treatment is by hitting a cigarrette-shaped paper which is put between our feet fingers. And it feels so damn painfull.......I had 3 lumps before, and after 10 times treatment now only 1 left, Alhamdulillah
GOD......i really need your help to recover.
2. Study in Europe. I applied a scholarship that programmed in 2 chosen universities. I chose University of York, in UK for the Political Science and Institute of International Studies in Barcelona, Spain for Public Policy. It is just my first time applying for master scholarship. I do hope and pray to study and travel in Europe.
3. Get closer to Allah, my GOD. I've been recently feeling far from God, maybe because of the metropolitan environment that i am facing right now. I want and need to get closer, in order to be more calm and spiritfull. I need to pray more often, read the Qur'an frequently and do some good and charity to less fortunate people.
4. Closer to my families. I am sort of a rebel. I hardly can walk together with my parents and siblings. I don't feel love among us. I can't feel the sense of family at home. That's why i decided to rent a room in downtown. It's better for me to miss home while i'm away, than debating with parents and quarelling with my bro and sis while i'm at home, right?? For this, i will try to keep positive thinking about my family. They love me, but, maybe just the way they show it that makes me unable to feel it.
5. Be more organized person. I put things everywhere closest to me, then i forget to put them in the place where they should be. I oftenly forget the appoinments i've made, then make others that the timed conflict with. I oftenly postphone some works because of my laziness, untill i feel too many things to do then i finish them improperly because of the hurry. This is quiet hard, because i need somebody else to remind or even yell at me to make things done on time and correctly and not keep on postphoning things. Friends are not always available, eventhough maybe i have a million, and at the moment i am enjoying my single status. So for this, i need quiet a longer time to change.
6. More on exercise and work out. I enjoy of waking up very late on Sunday (which my Mom always screams if i do this at home). I'm not staying in a place where gym is just around the corner. Fitness center is quiet expensive to be a member of it. My family has a domestic helper at home, that it is unecessarily for me to do things unless she is not around. For this, maybe i need to call friends who is also programming to do more exercise. We can go to Senayan together to jogging or swimming or playing volley ball (my favorite that been a long time i don't play).
I still got a lot more wishes and plans actually, that's why i can't write more. I save it in my original software, my brain. I keep on thinking and imagining whatever i want to do and to be. I want to have a life without limits and boundaries (in a good way), i want to express my freedom, i want to be everything i can be best................
I don't like this part.
Many people ask about my resolutions in this new year.
Well, maybe i have in my mind what i want to do and achieve, but i would rather keep it for my self than share it.
Actually i never targetting things to be done or achieved. I will just let everything goes and flows and i receive and run what GOD gives me.
I think it will be more interesting to see and face my life without planning it.
I try to be open minded and do whatever i want to do which comes to my mind anytime.
Maybe, i'm just afraid that my plans wouldn't be done, but not really. I'm just not into too targetting person.
However, this year i hope these several wishes can come true:
1. Recover from my FAM, which already been disturbing my mind for years, eventhough it is not a life threatening disease. For this, i am now having a treatment with sort of alternative way, instead of being surgeried. I have been surgeried twice for this disease, and i don't want to spend my life with other surgery. Now, i go to Kelapa Gading area every saturday morning to visit one the alternative treatment guy. I was introduced by my boss. It's quiet strange, the way he does the treatment is by hitting a cigarrette-shaped paper which is put between our feet fingers. And it feels so damn painfull.......I had 3 lumps before, and after 10 times treatment now only 1 left, Alhamdulillah
GOD......i really need your help to recover.
2. Study in Europe. I applied a scholarship that programmed in 2 chosen universities. I chose University of York, in UK for the Political Science and Institute of International Studies in Barcelona, Spain for Public Policy. It is just my first time applying for master scholarship. I do hope and pray to study and travel in Europe.
3. Get closer to Allah, my GOD. I've been recently feeling far from God, maybe because of the metropolitan environment that i am facing right now. I want and need to get closer, in order to be more calm and spiritfull. I need to pray more often, read the Qur'an frequently and do some good and charity to less fortunate people.
4. Closer to my families. I am sort of a rebel. I hardly can walk together with my parents and siblings. I don't feel love among us. I can't feel the sense of family at home. That's why i decided to rent a room in downtown. It's better for me to miss home while i'm away, than debating with parents and quarelling with my bro and sis while i'm at home, right?? For this, i will try to keep positive thinking about my family. They love me, but, maybe just the way they show it that makes me unable to feel it.
5. Be more organized person. I put things everywhere closest to me, then i forget to put them in the place where they should be. I oftenly forget the appoinments i've made, then make others that the timed conflict with. I oftenly postphone some works because of my laziness, untill i feel too many things to do then i finish them improperly because of the hurry. This is quiet hard, because i need somebody else to remind or even yell at me to make things done on time and correctly and not keep on postphoning things. Friends are not always available, eventhough maybe i have a million, and at the moment i am enjoying my single status. So for this, i need quiet a longer time to change.
6. More on exercise and work out. I enjoy of waking up very late on Sunday (which my Mom always screams if i do this at home). I'm not staying in a place where gym is just around the corner. Fitness center is quiet expensive to be a member of it. My family has a domestic helper at home, that it is unecessarily for me to do things unless she is not around. For this, maybe i need to call friends who is also programming to do more exercise. We can go to Senayan together to jogging or swimming or playing volley ball (my favorite that been a long time i don't play).
I still got a lot more wishes and plans actually, that's why i can't write more. I save it in my original software, my brain. I keep on thinking and imagining whatever i want to do and to be. I want to have a life without limits and boundaries (in a good way), i want to express my freedom, i want to be everything i can be best................
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